I worry about her. I always have, and always will. For we shared that little part of our life; and such a thing i have never done which felt like this, like that, and is that close, was that close.
The lover she has right now is causing trouble. Between them, between others, between herself. Its like she seeks to be the victim, always. And i feel bad for her, for my lost, because it is my fault she is with her now. If i had kept her, had not been so scared, then she would be happy, she would always be happy. With this other, she has nothing but stress, arguments, tears and its tearing me open from the inside, out.
Tell me that you forgive me? I want to keep you safe. I want to keep you happy, keep you loved. But everything just seems to be spiraling out of control for you now. And i could have stopped it.
Why didnt i stop it?
Its not a matter of me not loving her, oh believe me, i did. But then, why did it end so? Why did i end it.
I brought this pain on her and i will never forgive myself.
I shall always love you, my dear. And i shall protect you until we both pass, and then longer.
If only..
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