"When life leaves you high and dry
I'll be at your door tonight
If you need help, if you need help.
I'll shut down the city lights,
I'll lie, cheat, I'll beg and bribe
To make you well, to make you well.
When enemies are at your door
I'll carry you away from war
If you need help, if you need help.
Your hope dangling by a string
I'll share in your suffering
To make you well, to make you well.
Give me reasons to believe
That you would do the same for me.
And I would do it for you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on
I'll love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I'll love you long after you're gone
And long after you're gone, gone, gone.
When you fall like a statue
I'm gon' be there to catch you
Put you on your feet, you on your feet.
And if your well is empty
Not a thing will prevent me.
Tell me what you need, what do you need?
I surrender honestly.
You've always done the same for me.
So I would do it for you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on,
I'll love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I'll love you long after you're gone
And long after you're gone, gone, gone.
You're my back bone.
You're my cornerstone.
You're my crutch when my legs stop moving.
You're my head start.
You're my rugged heart.
You're the pulse that I've always needed.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum my heart never stops beating...
For you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on.
I'll love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I'll love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on,
I'll love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I'll love you long, long after you're gone.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum my heart never stops beating for you.
And long after you're gone, gone, gone.
I'll love you long after you're gone, gone, gone."
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New favorite. I do believe this song fits absolutely perfectly with how I'm feeling right at this moment, along with..
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"You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
When they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you
Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave
Everybody’s been there,
Everybody’s been stared down by the enemy
Fallen for the fear
And done some disappearing,
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, just stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is
Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
And since your history of silence
Won’t do you any good,
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?
Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
See you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you"
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It's funny how you fall in with a song that seems it was sung specifically for you, at this exact moment in your life. I guess that's how they're meant to be but still.. Makes you feel just that little bit less lonely at times you need that hand up.
It's strange.. I can't seem to get you out of my head these last few weeks.
I never really forgot you, it's just more so now.
I've become somewhat.. absent these last few years. To describe it better, I feel empty. Like there is nowhere for me now and nowhere for me to go. If I try and look ahead, all I see is failure or being stuck in a dead end job for the rest of my life. When I think of love, I see a lonely woman. I don't see myself dying of old age and I don't see children and grand children around me. I don't see me owning my own house or buying my own car let alone driving myself. It's odd when you think about it. I'm 22 years old and have had no life plan to strive towards.
If I had to give a reason to this I'd say I was depressed. But over what I am unsure.
Thankfully not many of the people in my life have realized this because I'm still very good at hiding my sadness. Not something to be proud of but until I get myself sorted, it's the best chance I have so as not to hurt those that know me.
All that said, when my head isn't full of thoughts of you, they are full of thoughts of my future, and despite how frustrated and upset I get thinking about it, I've already begun making plans to fix my future. The goals are still hazy but I know what I want, I just need to find ways of getting there.
On another note, due to thinking and worrying about you these past few weeks, I have taken up your tattoo request again. And with this new "look inside yourself" habit I have, I know why I never finished this sooner for you. I was worried it wouldn't be perfect. I found a solution though, I am going to give you multiples. Put down different ideas so you can pick or perhaps ask me to focus more time on your favorite out of them and the like. I think this way I will be able to finish them quite soon.
I would like a little help though, I know I came across it before and most probably asked you as well but for some reason all I remember is the year she became your angel. Would it be wrong of me to ask her birth date and passing date of you, for the banners? I'd like to try out some calligraphy but of course if you don't like the samples I send you, you can pick your own.
I was checking on your last post before I started this, and the time between posts scares me a little.. I'm not sure if hoping will do any good, but I do hope you return here every now and again. It was always our getaway and I do believe I'll be living here while I go through this rather panic filled reevaluation of myself, but of course if not then I'll leave the post for a while and simply forward it to your inbox.
I got sidetracked earlier, reading your last post. I kept scrolling. We had some difficult times didn't we? All that trouble caused by "the other girl" seemed to take up alot of our time haha.. There was so much more I wanted to learn about you and it seemed life had different plan. Despite that, I'd love to know what life handed you after school ended.
Perhaps I'll hear from you soon, perhaps not, but for what it's worth, I do miss you terribly. Seems I've been neglecting alot of my friends these last few years.
