And As She Opens Her Eyes...

This is what she sees.

Totally exasperated.

I want to get my job and drop school. im told that i should land the job before i drop school, even though school isn't helping my TCE or any certificate at all.

I want answers. so badly.. help me?


Screw it.


I want to fly.

Woke up today with a headache, not sure whats going on in my head but i can feel my heart beat and my blood pump through my body.

Yesterday was rather scary. i had quite the breakdown to a friend over chat.. which wasn't a good idea because i was sitting in the lounge with the laptop and it took all my effort and energy not to burst into tears.

I've decided i should get a move on with my life. i think what i need right now is the money to move out. school isn't paying me and that wouldn't bother me if i had money on the side. but truth is employers would rather hire full time workers than ones on the side. and id get a lot more money, quicker that way. we'll see.

Missing some friends that have moved from launceston. id give almost anything to have them next to me right now, i think it would be very reassuring to myself.

Made another blog yesterday, for my dreams. Its at seems to be helping me manage my thoughts too. i always liked the idea of dreams meaning something so when finding out their meanings, they seem to clear things up in my mind ha.

Better go, its saturday and im meant to be writing.

always love,


Today is a new day

the madness from the other day has kinda melted to nothing. im still stressed but im managing it well

ive decided im going to make another blog for my dreams and interpretations, it might help me understand them better.. well im hoping

another cold morning with no family in the house, parents will be home in one and a half hours and my brother in the back yard should be in with his friend soon.

i have a notepad next to me, it has quotes, dreams and such for the last few days.  seems comforting to have it right there in reach

feeling rather dazed.. maybe due to my dreams of late, maybe because im being made to believe one thing and then another and another, then find out the first was a lie, doubt the rest, find out the rest aren't, get told more shit, get told the others were lies.. ehh.

i need a holiday.

one day


Tuesday :)

ive decided if i get the money to throw around, im stealing a few of my friends, our destinations will be unknown but our direction will be pre planned haha

so i never thought id like this blogger site.. but i do! im rather addicted, its like a diary.. but you have to tone down what you put on here lol, anyone could read it. but thats what makes it fun, anyone can read it :)

took that photo on one of my friend and i's random adventures :) 10pm - 11pm i think it was, in the city park haha, was fun.. wish i could have gotten up there without so much struggle, he managed it in no time haha

best go

always love

Sierra x

Its only four days into easter break and im wanting to go back to school just to see someone. is that sad of me? i mean i have so much homework i should have finished.. i should be doing it now. and i hate the idea im so late with it. i hate that i have to face those teachers. and yet i want to go back because its the only way ill see her. :/ i should get a life

So im craving people. im craving touch. and im craving chocolate eclairs. silly sierra. maybe ill get over it soon?

Watching the comedy festival :D love it haha :)

One of my friends on the mainland wont be coming back any time soon.. its tearing me up. shes the type of person i dont do well without. i haven't seen her in months and now i have a chance of never seeing her again.. :(

I actually have letters to write, so i should go

Until next time :)

Always love


Ok so... i didnt end up coming back soon haha.. not sure why, but alot has happened.

i enrolled! i tried to make myself not become friends with people, to keep my head in my books. but it never worked haha and ive met some truely amazing people. im still keeping up with my work yes, a little behind in a subject or two but still there. thinking i should drop out.. work to get some money to move out or join the defence force.. im unsure.. but i really dont want to lose my friends.. i drifted from them last year after getting kicked out.. mmm

easter today :) no chocolate for me, oh i do love chocolate but we just didnt get around to it so it was just pancakes :) wonderful on its own :P

been writing out my entire life story the last few days for a friend. she'll be the first to hear/read it so im hoping she wont judge me on it but we'll see how that goes too..

better go before i get carried away, stay well x

always love,


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-- "Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life."

-- "Some people blame our generation, but have they ever stopped to think, who raised us?"

-- "Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself."

-- "Art is what you can get away with."

-- "Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die tomorrow."

-- "When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show it that you have a thousand reasons to smile."

-- "The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."

-- "Life is never easy for those who dream."

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-- "When i grow up i want to look back and know i did the wrong things for all the right reasons."

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