I feel.. everything.
That there is the only sentence i think explains this moment, and the last few months.
I feel everything.
I now see all the little things i thought never worth my attention. I hear the birds in the morning and i can feel their joy in the new morning, the warm sun or cool dawn air. I taste every minute flavor in the meals, the treats, the liquids i consume to quench my thirst. I touch the grass, the trees, the flowers, the brickwork, the rain and it's like my fingers have a new understanding of everything, like they can detect every atom in everything and know how they all fit together to make that book stay bound, to keep a building standing, to force a heart to beat every time it must to survive. I smell the pollen in the air, the weather in the breeze, the perfume on someone a room away..
I wonder constantly whether or not this is how people are meant to feel when they find/see/meet/talk to/yearn/need someone they love.
This.. being. This heavenly form.. This heart.. I barely know a thing about this person and still i wish to keep them so so very close to me for the rest of my life and longer if ever possible.
How idiotic it must seem.. How ironic coming from a person like me. I miss this person. I crave this person. I want this woman.
The idea sends my heart into such a state that i have to stop thinking, just stop everything, simply to try and calm the ever increasing tune due to fear it might burst right there and then.
The idea of seeing her, being close to her. Hearing her voice. Her accidental touch.
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Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
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I am a complete and utter fool.
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Sierra Lima Juliet Tango
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