And As She Opens Her Eyes...

This is what she sees.

I don't mind your birthday Romeo.. It's usually a lovely day. Sun, happiness, people you love around you. And it doesn't only happen to you haha.. Yesterday was a great day. Overall i did nothing but sleep late, spend time with my nephew, sent him off to the park with the parents and then went to work. I would like to know how you spent your special day?

I never hate your birthday. But i hate the day that came after. That was the day i lost you, after i left to work. Here's something i never told you about that night.

Do you recall our rather short friend, that is now a new mother and loves to skate? Seening we're on the internet I'll keep her name out of it, but she used to visit me at the pit alot. She goes by a nickname and hates her real name. I'm hoping by now you know who i am talking about haha.

She spent the night on the day i lost you. She used to do it frequently. Just turn up and bunk with me. Nothing ever went on during those nights, i just enjoyed the company since i never really share a bed with anyone, and i think she was just lonely that night as well.

Not long after your news, i told her. She was a comfort to have. The next morning she dragged me into town to meet up with my close friend Dear and another close friend of ours. We spent the day drinking under a bridge near town. They wanted to cheer me up and it worked while i sat still. It was a good day, inside not so much.. But these people that i love, decided to come together to distract me, to keep my mind off the girl they knew i was unconditionally in love with. I don't deserve such people in my life.. But i met you, i met them, i met countless more that continue to amaze me every time i see them or talk to them.

It's always baffled me.


I'm still here though Romeo.. I'm still listening and watching. I wont leave you, so you never have to feel alone.. Forgotten. Never will you be left to such feelings if i can help it. I am always and will always be here for you. xx

If Only.

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My name is Sierra.. or Juliet.. :) Im 21, I have greeny blue eyes and dirty blond hair.. Do have fun reading through my experiences and mental upheavals?


-- "Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life."

-- "Some people blame our generation, but have they ever stopped to think, who raised us?"

-- "Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself."

-- "Art is what you can get away with."

-- "Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die tomorrow."

-- "When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show it that you have a thousand reasons to smile."

-- "The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."

-- "Life is never easy for those who dream."

-- "There are two great days in a person's life. The day we are born and the day we discover why."

-- "You are every reason, every hope and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life."

-- "When i grow up i want to look back and know i did the wrong things for all the right reasons."

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