And As She Opens Her Eyes...

This is what she sees.

What do you do if someone you love stops loving you? You attempt to believe those around you that are telling you that its time to give up. To move on. She's happy, and you can be too if you let go.

I cannot let go.. But i am looking around her, past her, through her.

I've found myself looking back to my first real girlfriend, my first kiss and the most abusive, frightening and wonder filled relationship ive had. I miss her so bloody much. I could stand the hits, the fights, just for her kiss and love. She made me feel like me. Made me hole, no matter how much she tore at me. But she no longer has room for me. And once again im in a spot where ive let go of something truly amazing.

Work is killing. The money is lovely.. The hours are fine. Its the treatment of the staff that gets to me. Some cases are ok, like myself, but this one lady was treated like utter shit.. lost her job, after her son barely breathing after the accident 6 months ago and the harassment case she had to report.. they do this to her over something so small.. we are gobsmacked.. :/

I miss Dear. And im still unsettled by everything as well.. But ill get better.

I miss last year.. So badly.. I need the old moments, old friends. The closeness.. Bleh.. Stupid me.

We shall see.


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My name is Sierra.. or Juliet.. :) Im 21, I have greeny blue eyes and dirty blond hair.. Do have fun reading through my experiences and mental upheavals?


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